All I want for christmas is...

All I want for christmas is strength, patience and some love.
All I want for christmas is someone to hold my hand, hug me, and take me from here.
All I want for christmas is to find a home.

    I know that is stupid to believe that this christmas will be different. To have hope that things will change. But if there's someone out there who is called "Santa", please i ask you to help me, by making this christmas less painful than it seems. They said that christmas is all about love and truthful sayings. Christmas is all about being with family and love ones. But what if you are not loveable, what if you don't have a family literally or not , what if you're far away from the people who you really love? 
   What about those people? What about us? We just have to pretend all this hapiness of christmas and the love and glitters, hope and confettis?

Nope. 

   Because our truth is that we are struggling with more difficult things.And christmas for us is not special. It is just another season fo the year. It's one more end. 

   My name is Danae , I'm 22 years old and this christmas will be the most difficult.